I'm tired of being the "new stoner"

I just wanna vent for a sec. I got into smoking with my gf. She's older than me and been smoking for way longer than me. For the most part She's awesome. It just sucks that anytime things go wrong it's my fault. Like this morning for example. She likes the dab rig so she brought it to me to wake me when I was half asleep. We smoked some and eventually I passed it back. I was holding it there for a second and she moved her shoulder and bumped the hot glass. I get it I've touched it before. Maybe if I wasn't half asleep I would've yanked it back. Or something. If anything I think this is a mutual accident. Nah she started lecturing me like the accident was only my fault because I'm a new pot head. I apologized because it was partly my fault. But I hate that for some reason she sees me as a dangerous Idiot that needs to br warned about poking red hot metal into people.