Self medicating vs recreation?

Hi guys - just looking to pick people’s brains here.

I’m looking into applying for MC - I have adhd and have smoked for a long time (of course) but I don’t want to use BM anymore.

My question is, how do we know the difference between self medicating and recreational use?

I definitely feel like weed helps with my symptoms - it helps me to relax, calms down internal hyperactivity - all of which I also ENJOY (+ the obvious dopamine). But also definitely enjoy having a smoke and chilling - the line is so blurred.

So how do I know if it’s self medicating, or just using something because I like it and it feels good and is fun?

Just wondering if anyone else feels there’s a crossover between the two - I want to be doing it for the right reasons