Do you document your sh and keep a count?

Am I weird for doing this? I take pictures, and count how many cuts.
this year so far I've made 1469 cuts... last year was 2653... idk if that is a lot or not really in the grand scheme of things.... but it's either cut, or KMS.... because the emotional pain is too much. I don't even have individual scars anymore... it's just like... a sheet... I don't see things getting any better though until this situation improves though.