Finding my beliefs

Hi so, I've always been very passionate about my opinions and what I think on religion but I've never quite found a word I could put to it. I've always thought of religion as something that is completely subjective. But it's not like I don't believe there are gods for other people who believe in them. It goes further than respecting someone's religion and thoughts and I genuinely do believe that their beliefs are real, in a way I believe all religions are true and real and exist in the world and beyond. In my mind everyone's brain is different, they create their reality and their higher power is there. I don't currently believe their is a god or religion for me but believe that all are here for the individual who focuses on them. Their perspective of life and the afterlife is their reality.
I'm wondering if there is anyone who understands what I mean? I call myself an athiest as in my reality religion is unrealistic but all said before stands . Again it goes a lot further than respect and I feel that i consecutively believe in no religion and all at the same time. Is this possible?