I want to be religious. But I don’t believe.

This is going to sound extremely stupid but bear with me please. I’ve been scared of death forever now. Of that dark emptiness that I think is there. I’ve been envious of people and i’ve all around been a bad person. I know religion would help me with a lot of the problems I have but I keep thinking about things way too scientifically to believe in anything. I lack structure. I really wish there would be a way I could FORCE myself to believe. Any advice at all for this?