15 Years Served...Only Another 5 to Go

I'm very glad to have come across this. I too am a regretful parent. It's not that I don't love them (2 boys ages 15 and 13). I certainly do, more than anything else. But there's no way I should've been a parent. I knew it, more clearly than anything I've ever known in my life but I was in a heavily co-dependent relationship with my wife who I'd met when I was very young and when she told me that if she didn't have children, she'd never be happy again, I went along with it. My own stupid fault for not saying what I knew but it's been disastrous for my mental health. I have a strong sense of duty but it's getting harder and harder to keep it together. Miraculously we're still together but who knows for how much longer, it's destroyed our relationship. I'm counting the days until youngest is 18. It feels like a prison sentence.