I’ve lost my son.

Repost because my other account doesn’t seem to be showing posts to others. Sorry if this is an improper use of the flair but this is important to me.

This is Mr. Whale, (super original ik) and I've had him for 18 years, or my entire life. He's been there since I gained consciousness, and today might've been my last time seeing him.

I was on a family trip to Denver CO, and we were driving back today to Olathe, KS. I had Mr. Whale with me in the car and I guess he must've gotten knocked out of the car at one of the stops or something. l've been on the road for 9 hours already and I'm now retracing my steps with my dad to look for him. There's a blizzard heading our direction and we're arriving to our first destination at maybe midnight.

If I can't find him I honest!to god don't know what l'll do. I'm autistic so he's been one of the things that can calm me down if nothing else can. If anyone has any advice on what to do in this situation or how to move on in the event I'm unable to find him, it would be IMMENSELY appreciated. This is hurting my soul to a level I can't really comprehend and I feel like my entire self’s been lost with him.