Not coping very well

Hey guys,

I'm a FTM, and my baby is 8 days old. I loved him from the moment I knew I was pregnant and even more so when I finally met him. He's my little sweetheart, born at 38 weeks (elective c section).

My issue is, I've been hit by baby blues SO hard, that I feel like I'm drowning from time to time. I'm so nervous and anxious that something happens to my son, that I sleep with lights on so I can not just hear but also see if he's breathing in his cot (about 1m away from my bed). I can't move his bed closer to mine, unfortunately. I stress when he cries. I stress when I can't make him burp. I stress when he spits out some formula (I don't BF). Etc etc the list is endless.

On top of that, I cry about 500 times a day for no reason at all, when I can only maybe justify crying from some sleep deprivation.

My lovely husband is a HUGE support and he does everything and above, sending me to sleep any time I feel like it.

But I also stress what am I going to do when he's back to work? (In 3 weeks). He claims he absolutely doesn't mind me crying all the time, but I feel like I'm slowly getting on his nerves..

This topic has been discussed many times, but could you guys offer me a little reassurance that baby blues will ease off soon enough and my hormones won't be making me sob for no reason at all.

Thank you ❤️