A poem I wrote about seeing your ex with someone new

I try to rationalize why it hurts so much to think that you are with someone who is better for you than me

Because despite how much I love, it hurts to let go of the idea

that I was perfect for you and you were perfect for me

I think I am scared of being forgotten

or remembered as being not good enough

I think I am scared of being remembered as the one who wasn’t the one who treated you better than everyone else

At the end of the day, it’s not the fact that I don’t want you to be happy without me

It’s the fact that there is someone who you are happier with

It’s important for me to remember

that love is not a competition between past and present lovers.

It’s a weaving and wavering fight to find the one who you are able to live most harmoniously with

most authentically with

most flowingly with

for the moment of life that you are in

And if you have found that,

I commend you for being strong enough open enough to allow that love into your life.

Even if it is someone who may be better than me but still they are not me

just different

and one day I will find my one

who is different

who is right for my moment in time

and who will love me as authentically

openly

deeply

as I was able to love you.