not being able to have penetrative sex is so hard.

i (ftm) have been in a relationship with my cis gf for over a year now. our sex is great for the most part, but its getting increasingly harder for me to cope with the fact that i’ll probably never be able to actually have penetrative sex with her. i love her with everything in me and she affirms me when im feeling dysphoric, and has never made me feel bad about being trans.

i think its difficult for me because i know that shes had sex with cis men in the past and i know i wont be able to give her what shes had in the past. we’ve been looking into different types of strap ons (strapless and strap) but i still dont know how to cope.