does gender mean absolutely nothing to anyone else?

i call myself agender - as in the complete lack of gender identity - because gender means nothing to me. my gender is depersonalized in the same way every aspect of “myself” is depersonalized. i feel no connection to typical experiences of womanhood. its just another aspect of socialization and identity that seems like its occurring behind a glass wall; completely foreign and unreachable to me. unknowable. idk if this is coherent at all, basically what im trying to say is like … does anyone elses gender feel just as derealized and depersonalized as the rest of them? as if theyre so far away from a tangible sense of self that you cant even connect a gender to whatever fractured shards of “identity” you have? i feel like absolutely nothing, so why would i feel like a woman or a man? it doesnt even register. i dont relate. it means nothing. ill also clarify that ive had dpdr my whole entire life so idk if that impacts things