Why does this last so long?

Why the hell couldn’t we suffer all the symptoms in the same month and then recover!

This is like torture! Every month something different! It seems like it will never end! It still seems illogical to me that we need years or brain retraining or putting all our strength without anyone’s help to be able to recover!! I feel a thousand times better than 15 months ago! But we have lost so much! And it really makes you very scared and over-vigilant about our bodies that were healthy a few months ago!! This has taught me a lot! To value every moment but I also feel so angry sometimes! I have missed so many things from my children and even from my husband that I am tired or everything hurts or depression gets the better of me!! It is all unfair! Sorry, just venting to the only ones who will understand this process