Repeated infections

Hi, I live in Aotearoa/New Zealand. I've tested positive for Covid 10x now. Some of the positives come after only a short time (about a month). I was 'recovered' in between and become symptomatic again.

Had anyone had this? What the hell is happening?

I'm losing my mind, people don't seem to believe me, and I'm just getting sicker and sicker, and my mental health is destroyed. I can't think properly or express myself, I had been treated for ADHD and the meds don't work anymore, and I'm devastated by that. I had to leave my job that I really enjoyed, I'm on a benefit (welfare) and it's horrible, I'm treated like a worthless piece of crap that doesn't deserve a good life. I can't protect or give my child a good life.

I'm so scared. I'm starting to think frightening things about just ending everything because I can't keep doing this.