Benzo Dilemma

I’ve read a couple posts/comments lately where people are taking a low dose benzo to help with symptoms. Many people claim they can’t function or work without the benzo. Somehow long term benzos work for these people when its always been my understanding that you build tolerance over time and they stop working

I’ve recently been faced with unemployment for the first time in my 2 years of LC. I have enough savings to get by for maybe 6 months and then that’s it. I won’t be homeless, but I’d have to move in with my narcissistic mom which would make my condition worse. I’ve been in a crash for about 3 months, initially caused by stress and then steroid withdrawal. The steroids themselves are wrecking my CNS but so are the withdrawals. So just stopping the taper wont help

Im torn. I need to start working, but my brain fog is so severe that I can’t even take care of myself. Getting on a benzo could help me right now, but I’ve heard the horror stories about how the withdrawals ruin lives. I feel like it’s like debt. Enjoy now, pay later. But I just can’t keep living this way in an almost vegetative brain state