The depths of bipolar?

Does anyone else feel like the most important people in your lives no matter how much the love u aren’t willing to sit down and listen to the actual depths of bipolar? Do you know what I mean ? Like the mania the splitting the cycle the episodes how these look different what they can look like… it’s so frustrating for me cause I’m trying to help you love me better or understand what I’m doing and you think I’m using it as an excuse for my behavior instead an explanation??