Am I being shallow? Talk me out of it pls
Problem/Goal: I met someone I like and I think she likes me too. Sobrang lonely ko nung di ko pa sya namemeet at tanggap ko nang single ako forever kaya nung nagclick kami, as in parehas ng gusto and hobbies; I took the chance. I thought she was a ride or die type kaso I discovered something about her past na it bothers me. She had a hoe phase and sells nude content online. At may mga thirst trap posts parin sya sa twitter na ang daming nag cocomment na lalaki (sa personal account nya ha with real name etc).
Context: I know naman na past nya na yung pagiging hoe, pero idk how to handle it. Nakwento nya pa na meron parin syang videos doing the deed with her ex, di pa nya dinedelete. I really want this person, I want to take care of her, baby her, give her genuine love, spoil her and whatnot. Pero at the back of my mind, I can't shake the thought of her being sexualized by other men, and it seems like she's okay with it. In fact, I think she likes the attention she gets.
Dealing with loneliness is depressing na, that why I'm willing to gamble. Pero my mind and heart is telling me to run. Am I being shallow for closing the doors dahil lang naging hoe sya?
Chat, is she for the streets? Or close-minded lang ako?
Previous Attempts: None, I seriously don't know how to navigate this. Kaya I'd really appreciate your thoughts. Thank you.