natatakot ako sa t*te idk what to do

Problem/Goal: whenever i see male genitals i have a visceral reaction

Context: i'm a bisexual woman and my last relationship was with a man. he was a terrible partner but had pretty genitals. like conventionally attractive penis. his was the last male genital i've been able to look at without gagging. ever since we broke up i've been voluntarily celibate pero minsan nagkaka male talking stage ako and then at some point it leads to them sending me dick pics and i just look at my screen Horrified. like it genuinely looks disgusting to me and i feel so bad because sometimes the person is really nice and kind but i end up blocking them because i'm horrified at the sight of a male genital. at first i thought it was just because my last relationship was traumatic and sex was unhealthy but like at this point i cant even look at a strap-on IDK WHAT TO DO jesus christ

Previous Attempts: idk how to talk about this with my friends like we just end up laughing about it and like yeah its funny but idk how im gonna have a healthy sex life anymore 😭😭 send help if u've been in a similar situation pls</3