[Update] Hindi ata siya tulog talaga :’(

Problem/Goal: Maaga natutulog si bf. Read my previous post at comment section for context before you read this.

Context: Please do not post this on any other social media platforms. Thank you.

So ayun, throwback tayo onte. After my (29f) post sa adviceph, I waited for him (26m) to come home para makapag usap kami. Yes nakapag usap kami pero as usual saglit nanaman and hindi naman malalim since I just wanted to know how his day went saka pagod siya eh. Ayaw ko magpadagdag ng pagod sa kanya so I let him sleep uli since ganun na routine niya.

But then nung gabing yon, nagnotif bigla ung tiktok ko na nagrepost daw siya ng video. Eh hindi naman ako masyado maalam sa tiktok kasi di naman talaga ko gumagamit non. Normally, I dont check those notifs but this time, I checked it.

Pagbukas ko, totoo nga he reposted the video at that moment. He told me nights ago na kapag daw tulog siya, pinapagamit daw niya sa kapatid niya ung phone niya kasi naglalaro daw siya don since mas gusto daw ng kapatid niya phone niya kasi mas mabilis kaya hinahayaan na lang daw niya kapatid niya. Pero that certain video na nirepost niya wasn’t the game that his brother plays, his. Hindi un nilalaro ng kapatid niya ang alam ko kasi hindi naman kaya nga ng phone ng kapatid niya. So napaisip ako don. I immediately confronted him thru chat na hindi pala niya ko pinapansin. But then again, ”his brother” (di ko kasi sure kung kapatid ba talaga niya or siya lol) replied na tulog na daw kuya niya. So then I replied, “sorry sa abala”.

Kinabukasan, I left messages to him about my concerns. Sabi ko mag usap kami about our relationship kasi may mga gusto ko itanong ang clarify. But then the whole day, he has no response. May times na di nagdedeliver message, well baka kasi nawawalan sila ng connection sa internet or kuryente, I just give him the benefit of the doubt.

And here comes today, as of 4:49am pagkagising ko kanina, I opened my phone and still, no chats nor seen. Of course I’m worried and sad. I opened his messenger then BOOM. Yep, I saw a chat from one of his kalaro saying, rg daw sila ng kaduo niya.

I froze. My heart. 😔 At this point I’m overthinking na. Kaduo? Nino? Niya o kapatid niya?

Previous attempts: So I immediately chat him kung may iba na ba pero hindi nagdeliver ung chat. Malaki na duda ko. It’s killing me pero I’m surprisingly calmer. isisimba ko na lang muna to at iiyak kay Lord. Wala naman kasi akong other shoulder to cry on at this moment. Should I leave him be? Or antayin ko pa ung response niya sa lahat ng chats ko? I’ll update once I have received any or no response today.

Again, please do not post this on any other social media platforms. Thank you. Please be kind to my heart :’(