So negative

My close close friend for the past 6 years, is now my gf of 2 months, but she sees me as a bad person, and she has said this before, although she gaslights me into thinking she has not. She does NOT think I am a good person, and whenever she talks about my personality she never says anything positive, except that I am funny and emotionally intelligent. This is making me hate myself again, and I have the need to relapse now, and I wanted to come on here and ask for help with her. And whenever I try to talk about it, it's like she thinks it's okay because she compliments me about my looks all the time (which does not make sense to me).