I can't stop thinking about an experience with this man I met in a strip club once

I need to get this off my chest because its starting to stress me out that I will never have it this good again in my life. I worked at a strip club for a wee bit about 7 years ago now. My club offered customers the option to book us to play pool top less.

This every-day tradie guy from overseas came in and booked me up there for an hour. In my whole time stripping I never once did anything sexual with any of the customers - I didn't kiss them, no sensual massages or any sex despite being offered tonnes of money to do so. We also have cameras in the pool rooms that the manager is permanently watching so in this particular room you couldn't do anything more anyway (against the rules and you will get a massive fine/risk getting sent home). On top of that I am also a reasonably frigid person - despite working in a club. It takes a lot for me to want to be sexual with someone.

This man though got me turned on like I have never been in my entire life it was like I completely lost my mind. The touch he gave, with the words he said had me feral and braindead following instructions like he could read exactly what I needed without me knowing it myself. I was eventually lying down on the table with my legs off the edge and he put his face and lips right up to my panties and started inhaling and breathing out while I squirmed with desperation for him to go further. He pulled them to the side and did and oh my lord. Still til this day I have never had head like it in my entire life. I stopped him twice begging for a private room I wanted him in me so so bad and he completely refused and sushed me back into ecstasy as he carried on. It's the only time I have ever come from head and it was incredible. I didn't care about the manager seeing. I didn't care about being fined. I did not care about all the money I have turned down this whole time from others for this and then here I am virtually paying this man via a fine to do this to me. He made me feel so good and so beautiful.

7 years on and I still get off thinking about this god damned moment at least once a week. I never saw him again. He wouldn't give me his number. He could have gotten me to do anything. I tired to get his number so bad its possibly the most desperate I have ever acted. Every experience has paled since this. I wish I could have this again in this life he has set the bar too high its frustrating. Lord help me.