Sometimes i question god for what they do

I became friend of this girl 8 years ago from today, we ended up kissing each other in grade 7th, but due to my father’s transfer got separated by the time covid started, we were still talking and texting almost everyday, then we met on delhi railway station in grade 10th while i was going to my grandma’s home, that was the first time we were actually making out in our friend’s car’s front seat while he had given us 20 minutes to do so and got out of the car, later that year she was diagnosed with some brain hemorrhage that turned into cancer and was too big to cure, for almost a year they did some treatment after which she opted for passive euthanasia, she died on 22nd jan and today i opened my telegram after a long time and found out that she had a scheduled message for me on my birthday with an excel sheet of every movie or game she would recommend me to watch with the reason behind it, thats stupid but cute at the same time,now, if you are here sorry for wasting your time whoever you are, just wanted to share this somewhere so that i feel a bit lighter.