I'm finally done; I'm finished with my toxic relationship
The number of times we have gotten back together and repeated the same toxic cycle is ridiculous. I'm done with being stupid by doing the same thing over and over again. It is time to call it quits. I've actually finally blocked his emails (not just whatsapp, phone number, discord, instagram, lovense and iphone emergency contacts).
Right now I don't feel anything; I feel numb but when it hits me I will feel sad (I think... He threatened to send soemthing to my ex and I don't know whether he will follow through on it or not, so I might just feel angry instead).
He wasn't the first person who dominated me, but he was the first person who felt like he was my Dom, and I, his sub. However, I know that ending our relationship is for the best because it wasn't healthy.
I feel burned from this expereince. I guess when I'm ready I'll have to read up on vetting future partners and all of that jazz that I didn't think I needed to learn aboout.