GOD, YOU'RE SO UNFAIR.

at the back of my head, i kept on telling myself to trust you. i don't want to question my faith in you even though all this shit kept on happening to me. why does it that the people around me has good disposition in their own live, while i kept on fighting all my struggles?

big chunk of debt, a broken heart, no friends and family to lean on. i don't wanna burden anybody so i decided to stay away from a lot of people. but no one notice. im still in love with a guy that hurt me so badly even though he is the reason why all this happening to me. i can't let go cause if i do i have no one to turn on to, even if he does not do the same for me. i've stalked him, he looks great while here i am, crying every now and then thinking what if i choose to stay and things would be okay.

im also in debt. its my fault. i just want to forget everything that happen and escape my current situation but nothing happens. im still here.

i want this to end. i want this to stop. just take me. i dont want this life anymore.