Mental Health Reddit has become a compulsion. I need to go.

As the title says, participating in mental health subreddits has become a compulsion for me. It started a couple of weeks ago when I got burned out by bad news and wanted to check a few communities out for support. I'm 36 going on 37 and I've dealt with Tourette Syndrome, OCD, ADHD, GAD and treatment resistant depression for most of my life. I've felt very isolated for a long time. No one in my life really understands me.

I didn't seek support directly, instead I commented on other people's posts where I felt I had some "wisdom" to share. Sometimes I got sincere thank-yous from other redditors and I felt very good about that. I realize today that I'm just running from my intrusive thoughts and doing whatever I can to make myself feel like a good person. I'm chasing gratitude like a junkie.

I need to focus on my work. I need to emerge from my current crisis in a different way. Thank you to these communities for making me feel less isolated for a little bit. I know I need to find support groups, but that needs to be for like two hours on a Wednesday or something, not 24/7. Today is my last day. I'm deleting the app tomorrow.

I wish you all the very best, and I hope you find the relief you deserve.