what should I do?

I don't know if I have OCD anymore, or I am giving excuses to do bad things telling they are compulsions, I think I am going crazy, I knew I have ocd from after seeing disturbing thing on internet and searching why I have these bad thoughts, I feel like shit, I can't sleep, and I learned english from searching and reading tis about this thing, I don't know if I'm imagining I have ocd and acting like that replicating people on internet after googling, what should I do now?