obsessed about me learning a second languge

when I was age 12-14 I was so friked up by this disorder, at those times, I was addicted to internet too, youtube, reddit and things, english is not my mother tongue, but in those times I watched so much youtube like everything that comes to my feed, and awful types of porn, I was addicted to internet, and got into mental ward because of it,

I have a fetish which I developed in childhood, nothing bad or horrible , but when I was searching about those things came were very bad, you can't expect those things to not come when you are searching about any fetish, and I did not stopped it until recently came up by the worst porn ever, ||(pedokindofstuff) ||, and I had masturbation addiction, so I am really worried about me being good in the second language, like I got better in English because of those times, and because of these things I watched, I started watching more English content, and my english got better, I cn watch a film without subtitles now, I am worried about things I watched influencing my whole life rn, what do I do?