Are you guys enthusiastic regarding holi this year?

I dont thing i feel enthusiastic regarding any indian festival. Please dont take me as someone who is against the spirit of the festivals. I am just saying that festivals are only enjoyable when you have friends or family members. I dont have any enthusiasm left in me since high school. My friends were too much selfish. Whenever i asked for taking me in they just made dumb reasons and eventually i was forced to pull out but when they required anything they were just like hey man help me i am your friend and all that.

I just have my mom and dad in my family and there is no one with whom i can play holi with. It was like that since start so i dont feel enthusiastic about any festivals. Also i have to clear neet this year so the stakes are already really high.

What do you guys think?