I feel like dying

my brother passed away today he was my best friend someone who knew me in and out and the person i loved the most he turned 24 on 23rd this month and by this morning hes gone i loved him the most i'm the last person who talked to him properly on his birthday he said "mein bimar ho gaya hu and mein abhi ghar aa ra hu" he was in mumbai and he said he'll be home but he never came back home hes gone forever my best friend my biggest supporter my therapist my protector and most importantly my elder brother the one i always looked up to i don't know what to do i can't process it i can't accept it 5 days and it's all over hes gone i'll never see my brother after today unka roka tha soon with his gf of 6 years all his organs failed and my champ is gone he was so full of life he wanted to live but it's gone hes gone and i don't think i can live without him he was such a good boy the sweetest boy i can't cry at home it's a mess hes in delhi vo unko udhar se ghar la re hai my younger brother doesn't know idk how exactly im going to tell him this he adored our brother he looked up to him followed him like a tail i don't think i can live without him i really wish i would've died unki jgah i wish i could die now i loved my brother more than anything in this world and im sorry for ranting but i had to