Help Me Guys

I am 15M, My crush also a 15F.

8th Grade: We were pretty good friends and she used to talk to nicely while to others as what i have heard she was very sarcastic. Sometimes I thinks she did this maybe because I was bullied/roasted due to my fat(i hv lost it now). We exchanged Numbers and we used to chat a lot mostly on weekends and every 2-3 days. Also I wasn't spoiled due internet and i didn't know abt trust isuess and bad words wagera wagera.

9th Grade I told one of my frnd abt her and he leaked this shit and made me confess (Hey I really like ur personality) i didn't want to ofc it was too early and we didn't talk the whole year. after confessing she told someone please tell him i am not interested in him (but she still didn't block me on whatsapp)

10th grade I apologised and we started talking again and during Summer

I messed up again knowing no trust issues and someone leaked it, but quite a moth back we had talked till 2 am bro i was so happy just to relive my friendships moments.. but now I am being ghosted again Wished her Happy new Year no replies and I was stressing over it probably maybe its cuz of our 10th boards.

But Still I don't know and I still like her for the way she talks and also if i ever ask for help she never declines.

Moreover her friends only one by the way ruined us like too much. But recently in a class sir was asking whats each of us feature and she told she doesn't get emotionally attached very quickly.

I just want her as a friend atp she was the best person i came across and appreciated me, called me goofy and talked with me for me she was the sweetest person I even wrote 2 books full of poems of her,

I even wrote a song not my own voice(ai) but heres the poem

{"Falling in love was a void, I have been unable to avoid. She was the one I talked to, The only one who I cared for too. Yet now I wonder, was it fate That kept us close, then made us wait? For in the end, we drift apart, But she still lingers in my heart. I’ll carry on, though feelings fade, With memories of steps we made. For falling in love may be a void, But it's a beauty I’ll never avoid."}

we are mving to diff schools and i still can't come over her.