CRASHING OUT FR

Bro I miss him. I texted him about a month ago just to check in but he still has my number blocked from when he broke up with me in October. The other day I finally realized he will not break no contact. At least not while I’m still missing him, so I deleted his number along with anything that has connection to him. Voicemails he left, photos I’ve sent to friends, blocked him on everything INCLUDING LINKEDIN. i already had him blocked on everything but I’m ngl I was stalking his LinkedIn for a bit. And his Instagram through my works social media account LMFAO. his account is public which makes me think he WANTS me to see that he’s doing well. I don’t care anymore. I know that I need to move on. Sometimes I don’t think about him at all but other times I just miss him so much. It is really hard to admit that we are strangers again. A couple of weeks ago he walked by me for the first time on campus since we broke up. For him to not even look at me REALLY threw me for a loop. I can’t believe someone who was once so prominent in my life, someone who I thought I’d marry, ended up being someone who I don’t even know anymore. I don’t think I’d give him another chance even if he did reach out, but I just want to know he misses me. He broke up with me out of nowhere and gave me no answers. It’s been so difficult trying to navigate that. I just want to stop thinking about him and I can’t.