He blocked me on everything

So he’s (38M) finally blocked me (29F) after a whirlwind of a relationship. He has low-self esteem, depression, and was always self deprecating but I loved him anyway, I always told him that no matter his flaws I appreciated who he was and what he meant to me. He never felt like he was good enough for me and that I was better off without him and I would always tell him that wasn’t true and that I love him. This hurts and I feel so lost right now. I always felt like I was pulling my weight but he’d never pull his. I tried to push him to be more than what he showed me because I believed that there was more.

There were times where he would be a jerk to me and I don’t know if that stems from his low self-esteem or what but he did hurt me. I know people will say I’m better off without him but I just feel so lost and I don’t even know what moving on from this looks like. I’m still hanging on by a thread that he’ll unblock me after some time.