how do you stay positive

i’ve had two partial seizures today, less than 2 hours apart, this hasn’t happened in months so i’m drained and depressed. i miss my normal life so much, driving, swimming, being able to be alone, it’s just so hard for me. i’ve seen the the two friends i hang out with the most prior to my seizures once or twice in the last six months, we don’t talk much anymore because they said i had too much negative news for them. it feels like now that i can’t drive no one has the time of day for me