Dad…

Dear dad,

I just wanted to tell you that I won’t be joining the military anymore, I’m gonna be a mom later this year, it’ll be your first grandkid. I wish you would meet them. I don’t know how to tell them that they don’t have a grandpa or a grandma. How do I explain that? How do I explain to them that you’re alive you just don’t talk to me anymore… I wish it didn’t have to be this way, you were always there for me growing up, I don’t understand why you aren’t around now. Sometimes I just need your help or just need to talk to you but you aren’t there. This is so hard. Why can’t you just be there?? (I’m sorry if this is cringe I just needed to share w my father and idk where else to do that)