How to overcome the fear?

I got a Dmt pen a week or two ago. The day I got it I hit it and pussied out only took like a 6 second drag, I saw open eye visuals and abit of closed eye visuals. The second day I hit it I took a blinker and a bit and while I was puffing on it i basically passed out and spent the whole trip focusing on my breathing and tried to get comfortable, it was a bad trip although I don’t recall seeing anything (it confused me a lot). Since then I haven’t been able to fully commit to a breakthrough. I have had monster mushroom doses and experiences before and I’m not afraid of that in the slightest, idk what it is about dmt. Ik I will come back after like 15 mins but idk what’s stopping me? Anyone else go through this? Any advice? I’m really interested in psychedelics and I’m really excited and interested especially in dmt. Any help would be greatly appreciated!!!