Celibacy

I want to have sex so bad. I’ve been celibate for almost 2 years now. I miss it. I’ve had several opportunities for inter course and currently have one right now with a guy I like. But he’s a bit younger and not ready for commitment. He assured me I would be his only sex partner. But I still feel like I’m cheating myself if I share my body without receiving commitment. I would feel like I lost in the end while he gained without having to do anything. Idk what to do. I guess keep waiting until I receive commitment from someone else. But I’m starting to feel like that won’t come any time soon. I’m tired of denying myself pleasure, but I also want to uphold self respect.

UPDATE: he broke it off with me bc I told him I don’t want to have sex without commitment.