ang unfair naman xd

i’m still at my exploring stage (unfortunately) and these men i’m hooking up with told me i’m pretty not because maganda ako sa paningin nila but because they want my body. i barely get compliments like that since i was young kasi bully victim ako at always naccriticize sa looks ko.

now, nagsesettle ako sa booty calls kasi i also wanted to be called pretty or cute. in other words, i’m kinda craving for men’s validation and at some point parang mali din. even if there’s a moment na feeling ko maganda ako tapos nasabihan na hindi, my self-esteem will go at rock bottom pero sabi naman ng mama ko maganda ako, bakit kayong mga lalaki ang tataas ng standards niyo HAHAHA

pretty privilege probably exists lol kung di nalang maganda sa paningin niyo yung tao wag nalang magsalita para di nakakasakit ng feelings.

ps. still working on my myself tho ;;