I hated other kids for being “childish”

This is more or less a DAE post. When I was a kid, I felt genuine cringe/ick towards other kids my age after a certain point who still played with toys because I felt like we were too old for that. And I’m talking like, 10 years old. Weren’t they embarrassed? I had moments of self awareness where I wondered if I was the weird one, but for the wrong reason of not being “immature”.

I also always hated receiving praise even as a child. It was embarrassing and felt extremely infantalizing. Still does to this day actually. I never understood why teachers would do that and other kids weren’t seemingly as bothered by it.

And don’t get me started on seeing other children behave poorly in public. What I realize now is pretty normal behavior was not acceptable for us.