Grilfriend induced body dysmorphia is reducing after breakup

I met my girlfriend while I was an intern at the mayor's office in my city and I quickly fell in love with her, she was intelligent, organized and had a great social conscience.

When we began to know each other intimately and after having courted her like a gentleman through outings, compliments and gifts, she made some statements that triggered a body dysmorphia problem in me. She said that I couldn't go bald in the future because I would look bad, that I had a pathetic tummy, that I should do squats because my buttocks were flat and that my penis was small, at this moment she had not even seen my penis, it is certainly not the biggest but 6.2x4.9in for those who know what I mean is not exactly small.

The relationship continued because I was very much in love and the offenses were not enough to get me down from that cloud. I constantly tried to prove myself to her, gained 12lbs of muscle, bought a penis pump, spent a lot of money on clothes and because of the pressure I tried to commit suicide 3 times, in one of them I lost my car.

For the record, that was not the only humiliating moment worth highlighting, the emotional abuse continued for a long time.

Until one day I got fed up and recently decided to end the relationship. Without her on the map I have noticed that my mental health has improved significantly, as if a spell were being removed from me, I will not try to prove myself to anyone again, the knowledge I acquired will be mine for life and I hope one day to leave this relationship in the past.

We are all flawed, but good people choose to see the best in us, those are the people you want to be around.