Ayahuasca just long dmt trip?

Looking to go to my first ceremony but I’m about conflicted. I really love psychedelics and would consider myself a psychonaught (if that even exists). I’m not doing aya for the fun or whatever, I really do need heeling. Is it worth going to a ceremony or just mixing dmt with a MAOI (or whatever it’s mixed with). Does it feel the same? Is it just like one big long dmt breakthrough?