Does anyone else have 0 clue if they’re a competitive applicant or not and is going into RD decisions blind

I’ve convinced myself that I am not a competitive applicant whatsoever, but then again I’m getting admitted to some pretty selective schools and to some honors colleges, as well as receiving quite a lot of merit scholarships.

I have 0 clue where I lie on the “competitiveness” scale and I cannot predict at ALL whether I’m going to get accepted or not 😭😭😭😭😭 it’s like, one side of me thinks I’m just going to get rejected everywhere but then another side of me believes that I could pull off like a couple of admits or waitlists. Either way, I’m pretty happy about my options at the moment but it’d be nice yk LOL

Good luck to everyone this month!!