Coping mechanisms?

Trigger Warning: Self Harm

I need a new coping mechanism. The self harm isn't good. It numbs me but it isn't gonna work forever. I can't deal with being looked at like a freak anymore. I can't deal with slicing up my wrists for a moments relief from my own broken brain. Idk what to do. Ik i should go to therapy but idk how to get my parents to take me. How do i ask them to spend money on me because i managed to break myself? I need ways to cope with this, i don't want to have to resist slapping myself or slicing myself because I'm anxious. I want to be numb. I want to be normal. Please, any advice would help.